Paul McNeil

I remember turning 40 in Richmond, Virginia and on the eve of my 40th birthday doing two back to back sessions of Bikram Hot Yoga which was 180 minutes in a 105 degree temperature room.  But I weighted what I weigh now.  Maybe I’m not in too bad of physical shape.  It’s just my back hurts, that all.  Just walked for 1  hour and it’s 96 degrees outside.  I’m soaked with sweat.  I want to get back to where I was at 40 and each step, every small portion of food is bring closer to my goal. 

Maybe my yoga will never be the same after the injuries, but that’s okay you know.  It takes quite a bit of acceptance.  I’ll keep drinking tea, meditating and doing what I can of the mat.  I’m not hurting with grief so much like I was months ago when I was really in a lot of pain.

Someone asked me to me him for coffee.  I don’t really want to go to Union City, NJ this afternoon, but maybe I’ll have a good time.  People think enough of me to call.  But not too many AA people unfortunately, or maybe fortunately. The one’s that do usually turn me off with their advice or narrow-minded opinions.  Get this through your thick skull!  If I want advice I’ll ask you for it.